The sixteenth year of my life has been a crowded one, so to say. I learned and discovered many things. Maybe I've grown up, maybe not, but I have definitely changed myself in one way or another in this time.
->I have discovered my need for fantasy, for impossible. It cannot be true, or real but I wish for it with all my heart, even if it hurts. Because of this craving for mythological stories, I have discovered a movie I truly love. Stardust. It's an enchanting story that has impressed me because of its profound meanings. After watching it, I was not thinking of the costumes, nor of the fantastic special effects. I was wondering about my own life, about how I wish to be, how I am, what good or bad really is. Even if in most of the stories the limit between good and evil can be crossed by characters, the important thing about them is that they simply remind us the existence of them. In a crazy world, we forget what good or bad really is.
->The past months I have been questioning myself a lot about my life. We, as teenagers, feel like we could do anything because WE CAN. Now, we are choosing our paths in life and our decisions may be crucial.
->I have learned that I really should not rush myself in any kind of inter human relationships, friendship or more than that. People can influence your opinion about other people and I should not let myself influenced in the future as nobody is at it seems. Friendship or something more than that is a feeling that should be unconditional, regardless of money, looks or needs. As rational beings, needs should not be influencing our existence or clouding our minds. Maybe this year has been a tough one, as I have learned myself I should stay away of selfish people and how to see that feature in someone. That kind of humans dramatize everything and do not care about how you feel in any context at all, having a strong opinion about themselves that is not even close to the truth. Letting them know that they are wrong is trigger for bitter words, for judgment coming from their side, and it hurts.
->I regret many things I have done, said and felt. The non-presence of regrets is impossible to me as I made so many mistakes. I regret many things, but not most of my decisions. Especially, I regret letting myself carried away too fast and not being careful enough, doing things "just to be done".
->Although I know that I should not trust people as much as I do sometimes, I started to embrace some of them with pure friendship, with warmth, and doing that does make me feel warmer too.
-> I realized that I cannot stop caring about everything surrounding me and that this simple fact makes me feel better every day.
-> There is nothing you can do to avoid harsh times. They will come anyway. But what it matters is how you cope with them and how they find you. A drop of optimism was good for me and a smile makes a day brighter.
Song: James Morrison - Please don't stop the rain
->I have discovered my need for fantasy, for impossible. It cannot be true, or real but I wish for it with all my heart, even if it hurts. Because of this craving for mythological stories, I have discovered a movie I truly love. Stardust. It's an enchanting story that has impressed me because of its profound meanings. After watching it, I was not thinking of the costumes, nor of the fantastic special effects. I was wondering about my own life, about how I wish to be, how I am, what good or bad really is. Even if in most of the stories the limit between good and evil can be crossed by characters, the important thing about them is that they simply remind us the existence of them. In a crazy world, we forget what good or bad really is.
->The past months I have been questioning myself a lot about my life. We, as teenagers, feel like we could do anything because WE CAN. Now, we are choosing our paths in life and our decisions may be crucial.
->I have learned that I really should not rush myself in any kind of inter human relationships, friendship or more than that. People can influence your opinion about other people and I should not let myself influenced in the future as nobody is at it seems. Friendship or something more than that is a feeling that should be unconditional, regardless of money, looks or needs. As rational beings, needs should not be influencing our existence or clouding our minds. Maybe this year has been a tough one, as I have learned myself I should stay away of selfish people and how to see that feature in someone. That kind of humans dramatize everything and do not care about how you feel in any context at all, having a strong opinion about themselves that is not even close to the truth. Letting them know that they are wrong is trigger for bitter words, for judgment coming from their side, and it hurts.
->I regret many things I have done, said and felt. The non-presence of regrets is impossible to me as I made so many mistakes. I regret many things, but not most of my decisions. Especially, I regret letting myself carried away too fast and not being careful enough, doing things "just to be done".
->Although I know that I should not trust people as much as I do sometimes, I started to embrace some of them with pure friendship, with warmth, and doing that does make me feel warmer too.
-> I realized that I cannot stop caring about everything surrounding me and that this simple fact makes me feel better every day.
-> There is nothing you can do to avoid harsh times. They will come anyway. But what it matters is how you cope with them and how they find you. A drop of optimism was good for me and a smile makes a day brighter.
Song: James Morrison - Please don't stop the rain
